Personal Rhythms

Recently, I have been asking my friends this question: " Do you think that your body has a rhythm that is unique to you? That if you were to let go of all the should's and the ought to's and the rules you have been taught about how to live your life, that without the mind, your body would have a rhythm that would provide you with your highest purpose?"

Most of them say yes, but then it becomes obvious that they don't really have a clue how to bring this about. My sense is that the world is chock full of rhythms. And most of us are engaged in the world. So how do we maintain our personal rhythm in the midst of these other rhythms? How to we manage our daily responsibilities? I would think that the first necessity would be to actually find out what our rhythm is. I know that the few times I have experimented with this notion, I have gone into a spiral. The spiral seems to go into more and more eccentric behavior patterns. I eat more irregularly, I sleep more sporadically, and I get frenetic. I bounce back and forth between the polarities of totally off and totally on. It's a bit manic depressive or bipolar as it is now termed, thank you.

Making appointments and breaking them, Mexican time.

It seems to me that one possibility is to live with more spaciousness in our commitments. So I agree to do something. but it is implicit in the agreement that if my personal process, my personal rhythm is totally committed to something that is going on at that moment, that my rhythm takes precedence. This does sound a bit narcissistic. I would imagine that a numbering system would help. On a scale of one to ten, one being I am not committed to anything at this moment, and ten being that I am totally into this moment. And then for each event, we decide what the number has to be for us to go or stay.

I am noticing that with my writing, I often just get motivated about the time that I have to walk out the door. Is that some neurotic pattern, or is it deeper? Lately I have been cancelling my appointments when I feel this adrenaline rush, and staying in and following my muse.